Professing Christian Fears His Conversion is Counterfeit - Answered 1755

Cases of Conscience 1755 - Pastor-I am a young person who have had a religious education, and have had hopes that it was not entirely in vain; though I desire to be ashamed, that I have improved it no better. 'I should be very much obliged to you, if you would form a question, and answer it, as sºon as possible, from the following broken account of myself. I was under
convictions, when I was very young; but they were too often stifled by me. But since that I have returned, and did believe God had begun a good work on my soul. I then thought it my duty to give myself up to the Lord in a public manner was received into a church of Christ, have often found pleasure sure in attending upon those ordinances, and in particular have found comfort at the Lord's table. Though it has not been always the same with me when there, yet I have hoped, that when the ordinance was not so comfortable, it was an humbling one. I am often in darkness about my state, and am ready to fear lest I should have deceived myself.