Satan's Strategy to Accuse and Paralyze You With Doubt

Satan will often try to shatter the believer’s peace of mind by deceiving them into believing the conviction they are experiencing is from the Lord when it is actually from their enemy. If the believer takes this condemnation to be from the Lord, then it can easily drive them into paralyzing doubt.

Original question: I just finished watching the video “don’t justify yourself while walking in darkness”, it came to me after I felt urges to preach on a bus in Toronto but was too afraid of men to get up and preach. I wondered if it would be effective, I know my mom tells me not to publicly preach to the general public of strangers since it’s likely to be counterproductive. Yet I felt the urge so strongly and this video came up when I was justifying myself for not preaching, so I’m wondering what I should do. Should I disregard my mother’s words and bus preach? Should I find a way to preach that’s not on a bus (even though that wasn’t my urge)?

I feel like I’ve ship wrecked my faith through this and other recent events. I haven’t been weeping and wailing and crying out to God, but just now after your video. It was a quiet and small cry of me not wanting to be distant and condemned, and to not want to disobey God in the future when I have the chance to pursue Him and be in service to Him.